some thing new calls for something new. got tired of the dark. bangalore.... my last scheduled trip, and the longest one yet. my three days here so far have been slow. go to work. work. walk home. watch tv. read. sleep. simple. just like me.

last weekend was goa. yes it was incredible. 3 girls, 1 guy. dream come true huh? well mostly anyways. there are some things which guys are just not cut out to have to handle. we rented a car and drove around. (shudder). first time to this new beach, medira , merinda, mermaid? not sure what its called but it was delightful. a little stream seperates the beach from the main road. a stream from which i had to use all my life guard skills to save.... a chappal! then the Dil Chataa Hai fort. looked better in the movie, but a nice place in all. a pretty hairy walk down tho, lotsa slipping and sliding.then to a fantastic little pace called la feniche for dinner. very romantic. 4 people 4 bottles of wine. lotsa crazy pictures. had a wonderful time, fab food, wonderous wine , devine dancing. then broke my own rule of not letting a friend drive home drunk. bad bad. got back to a couple of hours of very VERY intence conversations. my mind felt like it was swirling around in a vortex of different emotions. fear, compassion, tension, anger, love, worry, etc etc. oh and confusion of cource!

saturday was spent on the beach. feni, sun, squid and a good book. fan-tas-tic.

sunday was just lazing around till bonneys for a drink and then once again too soon a flight back.

week before that was IRM academy. it's what led to my last post.  ¶ 4/19/2006 01:09:00 PM 6 Comments

  being different, is difficult at times. rich and poor is easy. what about upper middle, middle middle and lower middle class. what about when its not about money, just the upbringing. just the choices your parents made, before you were born. maybe its that there is no value for money. or respect for it, or what ever that is. but maybe its having seen people who have soo much of it lying around but they're miserable and just try to buy the relationships and happiness that they want. 50 bucks a month is a cheap way to buy love huh. money comes and goes, often, but untill you open your mind to learning how to spend it, its not worth a damn. yeah you can save it. and thats a damn good idea. but here's the deal. if you save and save, so that ... whatever, but don't experience as much of your life you could have, what will you pass on. where do you belong. where you let yourself belong. be it the swankiest bar in 'town' or the shadiest one in the burbs. why is it that ..... there was a time when the aristrocat made the peasents life miserable just because they knew they had the upper hand. there are no aristrocats , no peasents.... but god help the lad who happened to be a 'bada baap ka beta'. it would be so easy to be vicious. just destroy the person in front of you. but like uncle ben said.... " with great power comes great responsibility".  ¶ 4/12/2006 07:33:00 PM 7 Comments

  talking pink about a month since my last post, and been on the road ever since. just pune actually, but as a total weekend warrior. drive up monday, bus back friday or saturday. my week is mostly work. met some interesting new people at 'uncle carston's house in pune. never knew that i'd actually meet people crazier than jamal. carston is this wonderful 53 year old gay german, who'se corporate by day and flaming by night. but amazingly interesting to have a real conversation with. his friend tho can talk and talk about the crazy good old days! my weekend tho have been great. party fridays and saturdays, family sundays. this weekend was perticularly rough. got back at 9pm on saturday. 10 at buckly court for a welcome home party. lotsa uncle aunty types saying how much you've grown and how 'hot' you look.grin. very weird hearing it from a 50 year old woman. 1130 at sports bar to end a friends 6mth dry spell with alcohol. the vodka was fine, but ooh man the tequila! 1 am at the finale part for lakme india fashion week. more vodka... but there was dancing! 230 at prive, the new bar where athena was. dont remember much, but the shots continued. finally staggered home. woke up blissfully hung over, but ready for the indigo brunch. wonderful as usual. i'm always amazed at how good tikik looks. and some spontanious last minute dancing was very good for the soul. got home to an evening of bad hindi movies, chai and samosas with the family. finally out for a quick catch up drink with a friend, and now ready for some sleep before i fly out tomorrow to chennai. i guess the "here's what i've been doing" stuff is fun but i gather that this blogs supposed to be more about what i've been thinkin. well, i've been doing a lot of that. was very flu'ed out in pune last week, so had a lot of time to sleep and think. not at the same time tho. i keep hearing about how gettin stuff outa me is 'like pulling teeth' it's not really that hard. i love to talk about me actually. just wating for the right time. i'm a little overwhelemd with work end these days. but i keep hoping that its just a getting used to it period. but just seems like i'm too busy to have time to worry about it. but that not what i need to talk about. the thing is i'm not sure what i do need to talk about. and sui, you're riight, i'm just a big softy too. but an evil wicked one. grin  ¶ 4/02/2006 07:09:00 PM 2 Comments