Anger. Yoda had a great line on the fear anger hate suffering cycle. And of late I've been feeling it , with modification. Anger- fear - hate - denail. That's my cycle. And it tends to run its course in about 2 mins. It comes on like a rush of adrenalin stabbed directly into your chest, whips your head into a tornado of thought, and then vanishes like kaizer soze. I normally prefer to remain silent during those two mins - but its been getting harder to control. Hopefully I won't be turning green and wearing torn purple trowsers anytime soon.  ¶ 4/12/2007 05:50:00 AM 5 Comments

  Sleep has always been important to me. In fact its been essential. For years and years the one thing that always made me late or miss stuff happening has been sleep. And I wondered what makes me unable to sleep at night , while I can be zonked out all day. Well it would seem the latter stems from the former. But why can't I sleep at night? Ok there are tikme when I'm out doing the social things a person like me is likely to do. But what about those nights when I'm up doing nothing at all? I belive the answer is - ritual. Most everyone I know has some kinda pre bed ritual. Taking lenses out. Brushing teeth. Pajamas. Which changes your frame of mind to sleep mode. Which I lack. So now I ritualize. Super shower and peaceful pajamas. Has done me well so far.
On a side note - my pajamas are a bit risque - new pairs are required.  ¶ 4/05/2007 11:58:00 AM 3 Comments